Saturday, October 14, 2006

Long Time ... No See!


Fukin Aye! ase tanto tiempo q no entro al blog..... espero q todos esten super bien.... estoy super concentrada en lo q es la skul,..... esta super Puñ3%&r@... pero me graduo!!!!! de 9no pero algo es algo! ... i mean yo y mi prima, Ania somos las " presidentas" cmo kien dice de la clase its awesome but hard.... si hay gente por ahi ke tiene mi numero y yo el de ellos, y no los eh llamado sabes por que es.... I really have no time, pero me ablan por aki and i'll try to come on more often.... you know i love you guys even if we dont talk that much! .... nah... esto que esta aki es para mi bebito TE AMO CHRISTIAN!!!:
Hay veces que mi alma
baila tangos con la soledad.
Y necesito de tabla tu amor
para asirme a ella en mi tempestad.
Pensando en ti
Paso el día pensando en ti
Enséñame a escuchar tus labios.
A leer el sol.
Llévame a donde los sueños fabrican tu voz.
Pensando en ti
acuno mi alma pensando en ti
¿Dónde estás? Tengo miedo, ayúdame a caminar.
Pues nunca solo yo podré encontrar
La forma de ser libre...quiero descansar..Pensando en ti
duermo el odio pensando en ti... Paso el día pensando en ti.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Happy Valentines!!!




Gente I'm really sorry I haven't writen in over a month... it's been quite a year start... U cannot imagine... anyways, todo esta bien una o dos cositas q me sacan po'el techo, but that's pretty normal by now... pero ya, voy a hablar de San Valentin... GOD!!! como pasa el tiempo , i remember when i was only like 11 years old and my friend's woul'd have boyfriend's and they would take them to dinner and buy them chocolates and stuff like that and I would just feel sad and leftout but mostly lonely cause nobody would give me anything , to me that was the worst holiday of the year ... it sucked not having anybody... but now i do ...(IN YOUR FACE BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)And i'm really greatfull that God has given me such a beautiful, understanding, great guy. Yo se que casi siempre q hago un post hablo de ti bebo... I'm sorry! but I fucking love you soooooooooooooooo much!!! (jiji) gueno pues que mas... (no se) ok, then... cuando sepa, escribo otra cosa BYE!!!!!!!! HAPPY VALENTINES!!! TO EEEEEEEEEEVERYYYYYY ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEE much love to my beby!!!! Muaaaaaaaaaaa

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

The Reason for the Truth...


Hace algunos dias me di cuenta de varias cosas y puedo decir q fueron los dias mas inexplicables pq no sabia ni como reaccionar a las cosas q me pasaban ...
Las lagrimas q derrame , no fueron en vano pero dolieron...
Hay cosas q no se pueden cambiar y eso era algo q yo no comprendia, no saben lo porkeria q uno se siente cuando entiende el rechazo
y el dolor de la persona q uno ama...
no puedo creer q todo este tiempo estuve tan siega ,
a algo q estaba justo al frente de mis ojos,
no puedo creer q en momentos en los cuales me pedian un simple sentimiento ,
no fui capaz de darlo... Deveria kemarme en el mismo infierno!!! ,
por ke eso es lo unico q meresco por no ser la persona q los demas esperaban q fuera, por ser tan egoista y pensar q el amor era solo para uno de los dos
y no para K y D de igual manera a los dos , muy tarde ya ,
me di cuenta de mi error ya , cuando no tenia mucho remedio ,
la persona a la cual yo le di la espalda, no me hizo lo mismo y ...
eso es lo peor, saver y darse cuenta de ke estavas ekivocado
y q era el la persona q decia ser todo el tiempo, q te de la mano
y te diga q no t preocupes , q todos cometemos errores y q te AMA de igual manera ,
ya ke los humanos , no somos perfectos ....
El tener esa capacidad de perdonar y esa virtud de ser bondadoso(a)
verdaderamente te hace ser la persona mas capaz de este mundo q va en decadencia... ese es el amor real, ese es el sentimiento q todos deberiamos encontrar para con los demas y no se si pueden darse cuenta pero no soy la misma,
¿de hace cuanto?... 2 dias , kizas 3 pero en este tiempo no he echo mas ,
q refleccionar, entender, reaccionar y arreglar , como pude ,
el daño q alguna vez hice a esa persona a la q amo, en el pasado pense q eso del amor era bull$#!t y q sin el, el mundo estaria mejor ,
ya q segun yo lo uniko q trae es sufrimiento ...
pero me di cuenta de q estaba super ekivocada , por ke si,
el amor trae sufrimiento pero tambien trae felicidad y te da un conocimiento
y una sabiduria q antes no tenias -por la falta de experiencia- dejenme decirles
q por eso, por el simple echo de q la sabiduria es como una lampara q te alumbra el camino , no vuelves a tropesar q la misma piedra 2 veses , en el amor eso no pasa ,
a menos q tu kieras q pase por q si tienes esa venda , aunke t den una vela
no vas a ver NADA ...
Creo q de eso q me paso he crecido mucho y q sin esa experiencia seguiria siendo
la nena caprichosa , pekeña e ignorante q era hace poco ...
todo gracias a q hay gente q se preocupa y actua como mis "angeles"
( u know who you are D,K y C) Los AMO TANTO q ni se imaginan...
gueno pues la faerie se va por un rato y estara postiando soon... BYE!!!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Well well!!!







Hey ppl Krad and Dark here whuts up?
The Farie aint here today so she told us

to post something so here we go...

"Feelings"

I find myself walking through the
valley of loneliness...While in this
road my feelings for u grow,they
get stronger...Each day y love u
more,each day i hate myself more
for not being able to make u happy...
Old memories hurting my heart
with a whole that burns when the
wind blows through...Since the day
i saw ur face my heart started feeling
warm...My feelings for u started growing
and I started to love u...I did not
wanted to love...I was scared my heart
would get even worse...I started feeling
my heart was feeling better and each time
i see ur face, each time i see u my heart
gets fixed my heart stoped aching my
heart stoped hurting...Thats when i learned
that i love u and that coyuld not help
loving u...Thats when i decided to love
u for ever...Upon my life i swore that i
would protect u with my aching heart,

with my hurting heart i'll protect u...

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

“You Kept My Secrets & Broke Your Promises”

I remember walking through the woods with you
And the tall green grass we were wading through
I hesitantly whispered my darkest secretI’ve never known much of trust
But I choose to believe that you would keep itIt’s funny how you can know someone so much
And how the deepest impression can be left by the lightest touch
And how you can know me better than anybody else
You told me you longed to live for me
Even more than for yourself
There’s no question in my mind that you meant it then
That look in your eyes could not have been pretend
But our human tendencies get the better of us sometimes
While you forgot your words
I just closed my eyes
I waited for you to look back at me and remember
But it took so long and soon
I knew this was no exception to forever
Being out of reach for meI tried so hard to hold on
But some things aren’t meant to be
You know I don’t cry hardly at all
You’re the only one who knows why my self-image is so small
And if you’re wondering there are still times at night I lie awake
Unable to fall asleep as I finish peeling away the day’s smiles
That only you would have known were fake
I think back to all the times we had
And all of the memories that were so sad
How perhaps no one will understand us the way we do each other
How I can’t help but love you a little
And know I’ll always wonder
What if we’d been older when we met?
If you hadn’t strayed we’d be together yet
I know you know it even as you find ways to place the blame on me
You’ve always said I’m the only one
The one who can’t give you everything you need
And your words clash and contradict time and time again
You say that you love me but that we can’t be friends
It’s one thing to know my deepest secrets locked inside
But I’ve learned you’ll never understand me
‘Til you can push this selfishness aside
Maybe that is never
And I thought I could wait forever
Now I know I can’t take a backseat at every turn
I guess friends just can’t be lovers
I guess you live and learn
I didn't write this one but I can relate to it alot and it's from a person I don't know but admire alot Sorry for just saying Take Care the rest of you in my last post now I'm gonna say I love you all mother fucker's **giggless**

Sometimes...

Sometimes you wonder ...
sometimes you say
sometimes you see
and stay quiet in disbelieve

Somedays your happy
somedays your sad
somedays you wonder...
Is he ever coming back

This night your safe
but next time you won't
this day you'll say
yesterday was better than today...

Your eyes, they see
your hands they hold
the power of rage
from vengance we'll close this page

They saw
they tried
they held the key
but in the fire threw it,
not wanting to see its feed

I decided to see
I decided to unmask
the stranger that let me down
now he's silent, makes no sound...

there is a diference in what you want now
And what you had before
the real task is to know how
and not to cry anymore



This is one of the most spontaneous posts/ poems I've EVER made I dont know how my friend's will react to it and I'm scared becouse somehow I see myself reflected in it ( that does not , [by any means] mean I'm a killer, ji ji) Its scary to see your creation , become like the creator, at that point you know you ACTUALY have talent and are using it to make others see that "there is more than one way to the light" I'm gonna take the risk and dedicate this piece of $#!t to the person that inspires most of my wrintings, {Krad Glitch} , he is that has made me realise how little I value what is supposed to be most important; MY LIFE , thank you for giving me your love , your soul , your feelings and thank you for sharing your knowledge with me a mere human undeserving of it... I LOVE YOU , you don't know how; TE AMO BEBO!!!! kuidence the rest of you !!!! hasta la proxima ;)


Monday, January 02, 2006

Love Hurts... :(


I cried in silence every single night
Waiting for you to rescue me , my prince, my knight
You were my hapiness, what wouldn't I give
For now in your heart, I don't live...
If God would give me one more day
I would walk up to you , & I love you I'd say
Not to love you again , that's my only fear
For me you were everything thats near and dear
I'll wait for you till the end
My fellings nothing will bent...
-My personal thanks to the ASS HOLE who is responsible for this poem A.D.P.L.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Hey!!!


Bueno gente , este es primer post de mi blog kiero q sepan q en el blog voy a postiar cosas sobre mi vida diaria poemas y canciones y conflictos sobre los cuales crea q gente de este medio me puedad ayudar , pero yo no soy tan seria na soy de lo mas chistosita de ves en cuando y me encanta tripiar con mis amistades , practicamente VIVO en el mall y soy una fan empedernida de Harry Potter , como pueden ver me encanten las faries y las pixies y soy una rokerita punka ( y super proud of it!!!) Ablo el ingles cmo si hubieranacido en E.E. U.U. y probablemente la mayoria de los posts sean en ingles... q mas... ah! se me olvidava!! Kiero mandarle un Super saludo a KRAD el es la persona mas sabia y inteligente q la vida me ha permitido conocer , le doy muchas gracias a Dios por eso .... ;) Luv Ya BB!!! y a Ania ( marialis) , mi prima
I guess thats about it ... see ya later dios me los bendigamucho a todos!!!!
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